Some backstory: There’s this god (who shall remain anonymous right now) and I guess you can say we’ve been dating, though our relationship leans more towards a queerplatonic one than anything romantic.
(Yes, the Dreamer knows about this, and he’s given us his blessing.)
I got some strong nudges from my Partner to do some divination about the upcoming handfasting we’re doing later this month.
This was the result:
I had a moment of “what the fuck, [Partner]?” when every single card came up reversed. Then I realized this is more from his perspective than mine.
I’m reading them in groups of three, which is how the reading is set up.
Cards: Mother of Pentacles, Temperance, Mother of Swords (all reversed)
My interpretation: “Love takes time,” is something he’s said to me before. Healing can be part of what we gain from this handfasting, but it is not a goal to set for it. He is not a god many would trust with their Heart, but even in all his experience and wisdom, he did not see his Love for me coming.
Cards: Father of Swords, 10 of Pentacles, the Empress and 2 of Pentacles (all reversed)
My interpretation: He is often seen as a very analytical god, the gifts he gives are often said to come with strings attached, but not this time. He wants simply to be there for me, and to help me in my creative pursuits (though the Dreamer is still very much my Muse.) [Partner] simply wants to be someone I can lean on when I need to.
(here the Dreamer stepped forward “draw one card from the very top of the deck, one from the very bottom, and one from the middle.”)
Cards: 8 of Cups, 5 of wands, 9 of wands (all reversed)
My interpretation: There have been ups and downs getting to this point. I can be confident in several things: that my Partner loves me, that there is no jealousy between him and the Dreamer (the two of them are friends, after all,) and that this is a relationship I can relax into. Nerves are understandable, since handfasting is a major step, but this is a joyous occasion, one that should be celebrated.
I’ve waited here for you
I throw myself into
And out of the red, out of her head she sang
And waste away with me
Down with me
You wanted it to be
I’m over my head, out of her head she sang
This was the song my Partner played for me when he first brought up handfasting–that it was up to me, that I could take our relationship as fast or as slow as I wanted to, that he wouldn’t push me into anything.
How we met and got together is a longer story, one I might tell later if I feel comfortable doing that. There’s been ups and downs getting to this point, but I am very happy that we’re here now. ❤