When I do a tarot reading with my Beloveds, I read the cards like a story (unless they say otherwise) with the cards I draw building on each other to create meaning. I use both traditional tarot meanings, and intuition, to interpret the cards.
The three of us sit around the table, my morning offerings of coffee in hand, and a deck of tarot cards spread out before us.
The Hanged Man, III of Cups
The cards tell us to seek peace with one another. They also warn that peace will not be found in sacrifice and grand gestures, but in honestly supporting one another.
VIII of Cups, IX of Pentacles
This only drives the point home that the first cards made, to be honest and open with one another. The cards say that admitting where we went wrong and knowing when we’ve made a mistake is a needed skill to have in a marriage, especially in rough times like we’re facing now.
X of Wands, Page of Wands
These cards speak of my fear that I’ve ruined my marriages, of all my anxieties and broken feelings that have come rushing to the surface lately. The cards speak of my feelings like I need to be more to my Husbands, and one my of Beloveds reminds me that I had been miserable, and had created distance between us, the last time I tried to force myself to be someone I’m not in our marriage.
My other Beloved says that if I need the three of us to simply be close friends who are married, rather than romantic partners, that he’s fine with that (the other god is nodding in agreement; they had agreed that a shift like that was needed, for all of us.) He reminds me that there is not a hierarchy between friendship and romantic love, and that they both still love and care for me deeply.