Further

Recently I’ve begun to spend more time with someone from my past life, and it feels…really weird.  The main reason it feels weird is because of the complex history and bonds between us; I knew this person for a long time, and we went through a lot of things together, before our friendship ended.

I’ve had several gods tell me that we should work out whatever bond is there left over from our past, as that bond isn’t going to go away.  The Far Ones got a lot of glaring from me when They pointed out that healing this past life relationship is another part of the healing They want me to do.

I’d met this person before (and I knew he was from my past,) but when he stepped up and offered to help me on my sacred Kingship path…my response was to get pissed off, and to start metaphorically throwing things at him.  This isn’t my normal reaction to new people within my spiritual life at all, so I did a tarot reading with him about our past together, trying to figure out why I was so mad.

I’d known that we’d both lived in the Duat, that we’d been close friends (despite our very different backgrounds,) and that he’d fled with me when I was escaping.  That was about all I knew, and the reading we did together helped shed some light on it–both the past, and on why I was so angry with him.  The reading also confirmed some things I already knew (but it was nice to have more confirmation on.)

The question now is…where do we go from here?


I asked him for a song, and he gave me this one.  It’s a sad song, but considering what I know of our past, I can see why he chose it.

At the end of days, at the end of time
When the sun burns out will any of this matter?
Who will be there to remember who we were?
Who will be there to know that any of this had meaning for us?

And in retrospect I’ll say we’ve done no wrong
Who are we to judge what’s right and what has purpose for us?
With designs upon ourselves to do no wrong,
Running wild unaware of what might come of us

The sun was born and so it shall die
So only shadows comfort me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me
Each day shall end as it begins
And though you’re far away from me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me

Without a thought I will see everything eternal
Forget that once we were just dust from heavens far
As we were forged, we shall return perhaps someday
I will remember us and wonder who we were

The sun was born and so it shall die
So only shadows comfort me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me
Each day shall end as it begins
And though you’re far away from me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me

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