The Sound of Madness

It’s funny–not in a humorous way, just bitterly amusing–that all of this began with [Otherworld Me].  The number of times I was told that no, I’m perfectly fine mentally and have nothing wrong [either in conversation or in trying to research my symptoms] is something I’ve lost count of.  The entire time, I had this gut feeling of something is wrong.  Even when being told that no, I’m totally sane and just having a spiritual experience, that something is wrong feeling persisted.

Thank the King of Shattered Conscious I listened to those feelings.

I got out of the hospital yesterday; I was there for several days due to hallucinating and hearing voices, on top of my regular dissociation episodes.  I got put on medicine, one for depression and one for hallucinations, which also calms my intrusive thoughts.

I had no idea how bad it was, until the medicine made it stop.

That’s where my life is at right now, getting more doctor appointments arranged, getting a new therapist, and adjusting to my medication.  I do have medicine that’s helping me, and my pill box found a home on my shrine.

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9 thoughts on “The Sound of Madness

  1. I am so sorry to hear this, but glad that it is getting sorted out. What a rocky road to travel. Keep posting, Good luck to you in getting better

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  2. I have been there my cherished friend. I promise you, one day at a time. That was my mantra in the hospital. Years back, hospitalization was the best thing I could have ever done. It changed my life for the better and I became more psychically powerful and far more close to my spirits and gods than ever before. Gods and Darkness bless your sweet soul, Varian.

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