What if your Beloveds and Darkness vanish due to medicine?
That was a thought that went through my head several times when I was in the hospital. I eventually came up with an answer to that.
Even if that proves that they weren’t real–or that they’re stepping back to give my privacy and to adjust to medicine–I can still live by the values they’ve taught me.
That might be the direction my practice goes for a while, focusing on the values of Darkness, and bringing those values into my life, rather than focusing on a crystal clear connection with the gods and Otherworld stuff.