Feeling Like I’m Beginning Again

Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m back at the very beginning of my path.  I know I’m not, really, because I’ve known the Queen for almost six years now–but that feeling of being at the start of a new journey lingers.  Except this time, I know about the gods, about their morals and values (rather than starting from the group up on research,) and this time it’s an unrecorded path and pantheon.

Part of the Queen’s faith is focused on creativity, so I’m getting back into writing.  I’ve been meaning to do that for a while now, and I’ve taken the story to the writer’s group when I’m stuck on it.  Which brings me to the other major thing that’s part of her faith–community, and more importantly, asking for help when I need it.

I’ve talked plenty of times before about how I struggle with isolation, as well as with asking for help.  I feel–at least right now–like I’m starting to do better on that.  I’m currently writing this at the library, both to get out of the house, as well as getting better wi-fi to work on my job hunt.

So far, walking the Queen’s path has been more about improving my life Here, which is just what I need right now.  My active devotional practice is simply the morning and evening prayers to her, along with the occasional coffee offering when she wants to do a larger divination session.  Even though I feel like I’m back at the beginning of my path, it feels like where I need to be.

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