Within these darkened woods you wait, oh Mother of Darkness. Queen of the Hunt, your arrows find all targets, and your knives take down all foes. Mother Death, be kind to me, and lead me on your shadowed path.
–for the Lady of the Gallows
I did a reading this morning with the Queen, since she wanted to give me more information on my eventual Oath to her. She told me that the Oath is more about making her the center of my spiritual practice, since she’ll be the only deity I worship. (She’s not asking to be the only deity I worship, that’s just how things are working out.)
We’ve agreed to do a trial run of the Oath for a year before I Officially take it. So this Halloween I’ll give her a “trial run” version of the Oath, to see how it works for me, to show her that I can keep my word on this, and to be certain that I can keep up with my daily devotions to her.
I’ve been doing daily prayers for the Queen, one in the morning and one in the evening, since late May. Aside from a few days when I’ve been sick–I have a taboo [link] about doing anything spiritual when I’m ill–I’ve kept up with the prayers.
I do want to eventually buy a ring to signify the Oath. I’m not sure what kind of ring that will be, I want something I can wear every day, I do know that.
You are there
in the quiet moments
of my life, my beloved.
You remind me
to find joy in the
smallest of actions.
In the sunlight
dancing off your smile
and your songs in my Heart.
–for my husband, Jake. A gift for him, for finally getting his latest music project complete.
So I’ll probably start making some for my deities, people I know, and places in the Otherworlds.
New medication starts this evening,
please gods I hope I don’t have
any nasty side effects.
I know I’ve been really quiet on both my blogs, mainly because there’s not much to write about right now.
I’m starting to suspect that not only do I go into my annual fallow time in Summer, my depression also gets worse–I’m not saying that my depression and fallow time are connected, because they’re not. My fallow time starts in mid-to-late May, and it’s in June that my brain decides to hate me. The depression lingers around even after Darkness’s New Years, so I know the two aren’t connected.
I’ve also had some eye related health issues to take care of (thank the Blind King I got an appointment as fast as I did.) The ointment I used to treat it made everything blurry, so I haven’t spent as much time online. My eye doctor says that everything’s cleared up, so I’m good to go. Hopefully I can get some new glasses at my upcoming appointment, because I’ve had my old ones for years now.
Spiritual life wise, things are quiet. I’ve gotten a new tarot deck that only wants to be used during non-fallow times, so I’ll be writing about it later on. I got a set of heart-shaped runes, and those are going to be my personal set, rather than being for deity or Darkness related readings.