Poetry (Newbie Devotee Challenge)

Day 13: Write a poem for your deity. Use you compiled list of information as inspiration. Give the poem to your deity as an offering.

Mushrooms exist in a state of decay,
and this, too, is a part of life.

That growth slowly rotting, the pain
in my Heart falling away, to bear
the clean bones of my suffering.

Mother Death, help me know
freedom and joy in Light.

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Learning (Newbie Devotee Challenge)

Day 12: Reflect on what you’ve learned over the past 11 days.

I’ve learned more about her as a goddess, but more importantly, I’ve learned that becoming her devotee is going to be a slow, gradual process.  That’s the pace she wants–and my path with her is more about healing myself and my life Here, rather than anything major Over There.

Do you feel like you have learned more about your deity? Are there still aspects of your deity that you don’t understand/are unclear?

I know there’s more to learn about her, especially about Darkness in times past (and I feel her raised eyebrow at that.)  The reason I’m curious about that, is because her shrine is becoming covered in ravens/crows, which is a reference to Darkness in a very distant past.  So I’m curious about how that deals with my practice and relationship with her today, in modern times.

I’d like to learn more about her as a goddess of death–is she a death goddess in the sense of the ending of life, or like Death the tarot card, which is about major changes in life?

Runes (Newbie Devotee Challenge)

Day 11: Try using a different method, one that you have either never used or rarely used, to try speaking to your deity. Discuss the results.

I rarely use runes, even though the Queen has told me that she wants her own set, made of wood (which I’ve ordered, since I lack the carving skills to make my own set.)  I downloaded an app on my phone, since my sea stone runes are still lost in storage somewhere.

Are you available to talk?

Kenaz

A rune of spirituality, a clear “yes.”

Okay, anything specific you want to talk about?

Laguz

This rune is about water, healing, and about Life related energy.

Is this about the Heart Thing?

Mannaz

A rune about the self, which is what the Heart symbolism links back to.  It’s about healing, especially healing from my past.

Okay, does the Heart symbolism have anything to do with be becoming your devotee?

Eihwaz

A rune of enlightenment and purposefulness.  Yeah, this sounds like her and what being her devotee means.

Okay, I have a feeling that I’m just skimming the surface of the runes.  Anything else?

The rune I drew felt “wrong,” I’m taking that as a “no.”

As I said in the reading, I feel like I’m just skimming the surface of the runes.  I’m aware that, like tarot, they can be incredibly deep.  I think that once I get a set specific for her, that readings with her might become easier when using runes.

Divination (Newbie Devotee Challenge)

Day 10: What method(s) do you usually use to contact your deity? (Tarot, godphone, etc.) Why do you like using that method?

My favorite form of divination is music.  Not only is it the most discreet, but it’s also a good way to check in quickly, or get an answer to a simple question.  Music can also give tone (and words in the form of lyrics) that something like tarot just can’t get across.

The Queen does have a tarot deck that belongs to her/her spirits.  It’s the Raven’s Prophecy deck, and I’ve got a reading with it here [link.]  I like it because the art fits her, it’s easy to shuffle and read, and here’s zero nudity in it.

I have a somewhat working godphone, but I often use tarot or shufflemancy to back it up.  I find that if the Queen speaks to me, that it helps for me to back up what she said with divination of my own.

Developments

Bought some runes for my Queen, since she’s been indicating that she wants a set for herself, made of wood (my current set is made of sea stone.)

I found a lovely set of runes that are black and gold, so that’s high contrast enough that I can see it.  Plus Light-in-Darkness as a play on words.

Scheduals (Newbie Devotee Challenge)

Day 9: Discuss your daily/weekly/monthly/etc. worship “schedule.” What do you do for your deity? What offerings do you give? How often do you pray? And so on. Are you happy with how much/little time you give your deity? If not, what could you do to change that?

My offerings to her are all about my daily life.  I dedicate my exercising to her (and I often listen to death metal while walking,) as well as continuing to care for my health.

I pray to her daily, once in the morning and once in the evening.  I talk to her throughout the day, if she wants to talk and I have the time/spoons.  I ended up having to write a new set of prayers to her, since some of the wording in the traditional evening prayers didn’t translate very well.

MORNING PRAYER

You who keep the Beasts hidden
walk with me in the Light of morning
erase my sorrows, Lady, bring me joy.

You who dwell in the Tree’s shadow
guide me throughout my days,
help me live in the world I see before me.

You are life, my Queen
dwelling always in my Heart
you see the beginning of my days.

EVENING PRAYER

Mother of Darkness
may I walk in your shadows,
with the comfort of your Love in my Heart

Mother of Beasts,
may I embrace parts of me I cannot love,
may I see beauty, and transform hatred to Love.

Oh Death, let me stand in the Tree’s shadow
may you guide my footsteps ever onward,
and may I be surrounded by your Light.