My Sunday So Far…

What I was going to do: a tarot reading to check in and see how things are going in the Otherworld

What I got: told that I’m seen as totally human Here, and to stop certain habits that help supply my anxiety that everything is going to blow up in my face

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Nothing Major is Happening Right Now

Right now I’m at a point in my spiritual life where nothing major is going on, and for some reason I feel like writing about it.  It’s not a fallow time; my deity Beloveds are busy right now with work, and they both drop by to spend time with me when they can.  The spirits are quiet, and so are my People.

I pulled out my mental health deck, and did a quick tarot reading.  The reading indicated that this year is going to be a quiet one when it comes to astral drama and Otherworld shenanigans.  It said that I’ll still be celebrating holidays, and spending time with my Loved Ones, but it also cautioned me about excess worrying (especially worrying that a long period of quiet=shit’s about to hit the fan.)

Stepping Back from the Vortex (Devotional December)

At times, I feel like I’m the only mystic/godspouse/polytheist who has an “ordinary” life Here, and who’s gods, spirits, and Otherworld people encourage having that “normal” life.  I know I’m not (and that I can’t judge a person’s life by a handful of blog posts) but  “give up everything to the gods/make everything about the gods” is an attitude that I still see, and I’ve written about before (link) how unhealthy that is for me.

I got a new tarot deck yesterday, the Sinking Wasteland tarot.  I love the modern art style, the diversity of people in the deck, and that it has very little nudity.  The reading I did yesterday said that this is going to be a deck to help me when it comes to mental health related stuff; since it has a more sparse color scheme, it feels like it’s perfect for that.

I did a reading with the High King, and he gently called me out on having a difficult time breaking the habits in regards to what I call “the god (or astral) vortex.”

I know you lost friends [to the astral,] and I understand that you’re hurting from that, he said to me, but there’s deception in that path, in having the Otherworlds take over your life.

A Small Ritual

Yesterday, I felt pulled to do a small ritual for Darkness–something I hadn’t felt pulled to do in several months.  At first, I took my pill box off my shrine, but didn’t feel right lighting the lantern until I put it back on.  I guess that means that the pill box is part of my shrine now.

I did a brief tarot reading, and I was reassured that I’m on the right path in focusing on my life Here and letting Darkness run without me.  To be honest, I’ve needed the continuing quiet on my astral radar, but knowing everything is going well Over There is good.

I’ve started interpreting the Pentacle suit in tarot to be referencing things/people Here, as opposed to Over There, in my style of reading.  I got mostly pentacle cards in the reading I did, but swords showed up a few times.  I interpreted the sword cards as continuing to tell me to let go of the idea of a life filled with woo astral stuff, which has been a continuing theme both in my readings and with my Beloveds.

Overall, it was nice to do a small 15-minute ritual.  It was nice to hear from Darkness again, though I’ve relaxed into the overall quiet on my godphone/astral radar.

Reading With An Ally

I’ve been approached by a new deity, and he’s someone I greatly respect and admire.  He’s offered a formal relationship with me, and I wanted some clarification about *what* exactly he meant by “formal,” as well as some other things.

This reading’s under a cut because it’s just over 1,000 words long; I had questions, and he had answers.

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Engagement Reading

So J and I have been talking about doing a handfasting type of ceremony sometime in the Spring.  The handfasting would make our relationship “official,” as well as help some diplomacy related things relevant to Over There.  It’s also traditional in Darkness for a couple to do a handfasting as a way of being engaged for a year (or more) before taking any more permanent vows.

The subject of our pending engagement (we’re not considered “officially” engaged until we do the ceremony) came up again this morning over tea, so we did a reading about it together.  (My godphone has been having fantastically shitty reception lately, so J decided that tarot was the way to go.)

(Under the cut because this reading is nearly 800 words.)

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A Reading with the Monsters

I’ve gotten divination that’s pointed to the Monster spirits I work with being more active in my life in the coming year.  I’ve been getting more signs of them being around, and today they asked for a reading.


The first card, pulled with no question; the start of the conversation.

Card: 4 of Wands

This is a card about community and Home; that this is the first card they gave me indicates that they’re really stepping up in being involved in my life, not just being a ground of spirits I only acknowledge sometimes.

Okay, in what way?

Card: The Hermit

I heard one of them say “he has a star in his chest, Father.”  She was referencing the artwork, in which the Hermit has a star on what appears to be the back of his cloak, but could just as easily be over his Heart.

This card is normally about isolation and introspection, but in this case I’m getting a sense of it being more about moving on, moving forward, and following my own Light.

Is this Otherworld Me, or me-over-Here?  Reversed for Other Me, upright for me-over-Here.

They had me draw three cards; so it’s both Other Me and me-over-Here, with a bridge connecting them both.

Cards: 8 of Wands, 10 of Wands (bridge card), Queen of Pentacles (rev)

I’ve been making some rapid changes in my “mundane” life recently (finishing another semester of college, coming out as trans, writing more) and that hard work is not just going to pay off Here, but it will also help me in my goals in my Otherworld life (which makes sense, since me-here and Me Over There are connected.)

All right, then, that makes sense.  Is there any particular reason why you’re stepping up *now*?

Card: 7 of Pentacles

My practice has gone through a difficult time; this [the Monsters stepping up] is something that can change my practice radically and give it more structure than its had in the past.  This group of spirits being more present can also help me work towards understanding Darkness more.

“Understanding Darkness more,” in what way do you mean?

Card: the Magician (rev.)

This card points to understanding who I am to Darkness; learning more about how I fit into this Realm, which will lead to learning more about Darkness in general.  That this card is reversed carries a warning; to not become so caught up in what I’m learning about the Otherworlds that I neglect my life Here.

(I asked if they had anything more to say, and got a “no.)