Passing the Lantern (A Month for the Dreamer)

I had this Dream last night.  It feels Important, so I’m recording it here.


“He needs you.”

His hands rest on the young monk’s shoulders, his voice and gaze intense.

“He needs you.  My Husband will be there, my Friend will be there, but he’s going to need you by his side most of all, to handle what’s coming.  The Hunt will ride soon, the Festival will happen, and then I will leave.  If his mind shatters,” the Dreamer’s voice cracks, for just a second, “you call me–you call me so fast your phone lights on fire.”

Jake nods slowly.  “‘I promise to love you when your faith goes silent,’ was something I swore to Varian.  He swore that to me,” he motions to his robes, “but it goes both ways.”

Promise me.”

“I promise you, on my Heart, that I will be his Light.”

The Dreamer slowly nods.

He picks up a lantern (the candle is already burning,) passing it to Jake, and then the dream fades.

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Ashes (A Month for the Dreamer)

You watch as I descend into
the shattered parts of my mind

knowing

you cannot rescue me–and I’ve
been on the other side of this

seeing

you as you’ve fallen and tumbled
into memories long past and thought

forgotten

you push me towards sunlight and stained glass
and sandstone streets, because soon you will be

leaving

to go where none can follow (except one other,
and you are bound by your shared Hearts)

Beloved

I wanted to write joy for you, and instead
my mind keeps screaming and bringing up

ashes

of the past, the very thing you asked me not
to dwell upon, for those memories are cracks and

crevices

upon my Heart, and I feel as though I am lost
and that my own lantern is just out of reach.

Spring

Spring is here, the harvest,
the mountains and valleys
alive with song and fruit.

The light is slowly fading
to the heat of Summer, to the
Festival of Hearts, in which we

gather our loved ones close
for soon the Hunt shall ride
and Love will be our only Light.

Legacy

We are a family of scapegoats and would-be sacrifices,
a legacy that comes with a cost of damnation, and our rage
is great, and we mourn the family that could have been.

Fire has burned away the “greater good,” but still My son dreams
of his Father drowning, still the rage for those who have been broken
rises in Me, still the sorrow of betrayal and of ribbons burning lingers.

A new dawn has risen, yet again mourning hits Me–and you once said
I would die, in your cryptic fucking song–the only death to happen was
My grief–I have dyed My hair black, to erase you and your violence.

I walk through sandstone streets, King of those you would have broken;
I hear the laughter of children, talk with My Ally and Friend over coffee,
there is peace, Spring is here; your legacy of pain is being undone by Love.

Dreams of the Past

I dream of his shaking voice
his question “who are you?”
still resonating when I wake.

I dream of the stars reaching down
to court him, to lift him up, I dream
again of a ship sailing the stars.

I dream of the past
that I missed.

Entwined

I dream of them exchanging Hearts.

When I wake, I feel as though I understand their bond, why it’s a million levels and layers deep.  To exchange breath is one thing, a blood oath is another, but to exchange Hearts…that is something else entirely.

They are bound together to the point that not even death can keep them apart.