You sing to me to leave my regrets
behind, in the shadows cast by
my past, and friends left behind.
The stained glass of your monastery
changes your silver robes to shimmering
rainbows, and you shine with Light, my love.
Your songs fill my dreams
with peace, and pale rose petals
unfurling, these are flowers of hope.
I’ve found that I like having two knitting projects going at once; one that’s somewhat mindless so I can watch TV or listen to music while working on it, and one that’s more complex.
This one is–despite the first section being garter stitch, and the second being stockinette–my more complex project (the easy one is a gift for a family member Here.) The yarn is an amazingly soft merino/silk/baby alpaca blend, and it’s my first “high end” yarn purchase. I am in love with this yarn, not only does it feel wonderful to knit with, the fabric is just as soft as the yarn.
The pattern is the Beginner’s Stitch Sampler Scarf [link] and Jake was the one who chose the pattern. The pattern has been modified slightly so that each square is slightly less than 6 inches long (I did this because I only have two skeins of this yarn) but I like the perfect squares so far.
Right now I’m at the basket weave stitch section, which is a new stitch to me. I try to learn something new with every knitting project, and this pattern requires learning three new stitches. So far I am loving this project.
I finished the scarf [link] for my mortal Beloveds, Jake and Trev.
It’s shorter than I thought it would be; I knit the scarf lengthwise because I’d already cast on 130 stitches, and I didn’t want to tear back, then cast the scarf back on again. I knit it on size 11 circular needles, with a 2×2 ribbed pattern. There were two rows where I dropped stitches, and I learned that I can’t drop purled stitches nearly as well as I can knitted stitches; I kept losing track of if I’d done a yarn over or not, so the second row of dropped stitches isn’t even. I’m okay with that, to be honest.
Once I got used to working with the thick/thin yarn, I enjoyed working with it, I also loved the long color changes. I have some leftover green yarn from this project, but right now I’m not sure what to do with it. I think this yarn works best in a simple pastern like this, which shows off both the texture and the color changes.
The scarf is really warm and soft, though if I had to knit it again, I’d knit it width-wise rather than lengthwise, so I’d know how long the scarf was.
I’m currently working on my first knitting project of the new year. I’m making a scarf with my mortal Beloveds, Jake and Trev, in mind.
I’ve ended up improvising a pattern, because the patterns I tried didn’t work with the yarn (I’m using this yarn [link].) I tried the star stitch, because that one is said to work well with thick-and-thin yarn, and all I got was hand cramps and frustration. I thought about knitting a drop stitch scarf, since I only have 220 yards, but the fuzziness of the yarn would make that more of a mess than it’d be worth.
Right now it’s a simple 2×2 rib stitch, knit lengthwise because I’d already cast on 130 stitches when I’d realized that drop stitch probably wouldn’t work with this yarn. It’s a simple knit, and so far I’m enjoying seeing how the varying texture and colors work together.
I am not able to sing your songs
but I can wrap you in your silver
robes when your hands shake
too badly to do it yourself.
I will be there for you even when
your faith falls silent, my love,
as you have been there for me.
We met when everything was
tumbling down, when my past was
being torn into the light. You held my
hand as my other Loves had to step away
and for that I love you. You kept me grounded
as everything fell apart again; now let me do
the same for you, hold you close as storms
sweep over your Heart. Channel your loss
through songs or through silence, I will
stand by you either way. I will wrap you
in my wings, be your shelter and your sunlight.
Back in May, I wrote a post saying that my abilities to sense, see, and/or hear my Beloveds–let alone anyone else–has been going down steadily since April. My abilities dying…maybe finally happened?
I did some brief divination about all of this, and the reading was “everything Over There is fine, relax,” and that my godphone and abilities were bound to die sooner or later. This…doesn’t surprise me, but the ongoing quiet is strange.
Two weeks ago, the Dreamer left for his Summer Duties in Darkness. I’ve begun keeping a journal specifically for him when he’s gone over the Summer–he requested I do so through some divination I got–and it’s helped a lot. I don’t know if he gets the letters as I write them, but writing to him has been helping with being unable to reach him any other way.
The Madman has been around when he can be, but his appearances are sporadic. This makes sense, from what I know of the Dreamer’s Summer Duties, that his Spouse would be incredibly busy as well.
Jake is still around, which is comforting. I’ve been spending time with his family and friends when I can–just brief visits, nothing intense–and they really are beginning to feel like family to me.