It’s been a few weeks since I’ve made a serious post about Stuff Over There, so I’m just going to start rambling.
A few weeks ago, I made the conscious decision to put everything astral related in the hands of [my Otherworld Self]. Since then I’ve been learning to have enough confidence in my Other Self that He can do His Duties in the Otherworlds, and He can update me (Here) if He has any updates to pass on. That was one of the best things I’ve done in a while, regarding the Otherworld part of my path and my mental health.
One thing I’ve been learning recently is that I don’t have to be constantly “tuned in” to stuff Over There in order to do My Stuff Over There. I’ve been coming up with some ideas on how to work with these spirits without astral travel, but right now I’m just making notes of ideas, since right now isn’t a good time to plunge back into spiritual stuff. (Due to mental health stuff, and I have so much schoolwork that’s taking all my mental energy.)
Taking care of myself Here and my mental health is also part of this sacred Kingship path. Finding balance between Here and There–which at the moment means my life Here and my life There are almost completely separate.
There’s also finding balance between my three Beloveds. Two of them are deities, and one is not, so there’s different dynamics going on. Plus there’s balancing several different romantic relationships at the same time.
Even though I deal with the Dreamer and the Madman as my Husbands, I don’t forget that they’re [High Power Deity Guys], because their Jobs influence how they see the world (especially the Dreamer.)
I joke that my life is a fantasy or romance novel, but if it was my Heart would be torn between the three of them, between the highs of divinity and the solid ground of my mortal Beloved–but they’re not asking me to choose. Instead they’re helping me find balance, to learn to navigate my mortality, to slide between being a King in Other worlds, and a college student who procrastinated on his homework yet again.
I need that solid foundation of a life and Love Here, and they agree with me. Now is not the time to step fully into Darkness, now is the time to heal, to learn and become who I am in this world, to build a solid foundation of a mind that isn’t screaming at me every time I possibly make a mistake.
I’ve been writing stories as a way to process all the Otherworld trauma I’ve been dealing with. The stories aren’t exactly what happened, but exploring the Chosen One trope is a way for me to come to terms with what happened, and with being [Otherworld Me] and what that means.
The stories aren’t elegant; they’re fractured and don’t have a precise plot to them (other than the main character being angry about getting sucked into the Otherworlds) but they’re helping me deal with everything that’s been going on.