Prince of Darkness and Light

Hope is not a fleeting thing for you,
(it is something you learned from all of us
you learned of hope along with magic)
my son, Prince of Darkness and Light.

Three jewels adorn your Crown
one for each of your fathers,
a legacy of love and royalty.

Step up, young Sovereign,
but not into destiny; into
Stars and Winter, that liminal
space between Land and Void.

Whether you walk the Sea or Sky
know that we love you, that there will always
be a place for you and yours in our Hearts.

For the Past (III)

There is a sheet of wood in the basement with holes from throwing stars, and one you always carry with you, to remind you that I’m safe.

There is paint and herbs, alchemy and magic; your father gets lost in painting (I do not comment on how he is nearly out of red) a way to channel his rage without burning an entire Kingdom down in fury for what was done to me.

You have stuck to me like a shadow since I was brought home; you are a young teen now; old enough to understand what happened to the man both your fathers fell in love with, old enough to know I have no family now besides the three of you.

You sit at my side, your eyes so much like my own (and how my Heart would break when I’d see that shared shade of green in another life, but not knowing why) going from me, to your father, and back.  To the red of his canvas, hints of gold and black; he has painted the fire he so wishes to burn; there is rage in his eyes when he sees how I am hurt, how I am healing.

Our lives should have been different (we should have been planning a wedding) with my coming here.  But it was ruin that brought me here; ruin and jailbreak and long nights with the three of you surrounding me; at my side through the night for fear of me dying; for fear of me being stolen yet again.

Is there hope that our small Family will not be torn apart by rage and grief?

In moments like this I can feel it; a small flame flickering at the edges of our Hearts.

Silver Sparks

A million
silver sparks
light the air
as he walks
to the shore,

with his Fathers’
Kingdom
behind him.

He holds the moon,
reflected in the pearls
in his palms, a gift
from his Fathers.

He stands and waits by the sea,
knowing that the stars
will guide him Home.

He is fearless
in following
the lights
of his
dreams.

The Great Divide

Since it’s Winter’s Night tonight, I thought it was appropriate to make a post in honor of the Ruler of Winter, who also happens to be my stepson.

May Your light always shine from the Heavens.


I’ve mentioned in a few posts that I have a stepson.  He’s the Pantheon’s Winter god, and runs his own Kingdom that’s separate from my Husband’s.  He’s also one of the deities of my Husband’s Family (the other one being his twin sister) that shifted his identity on me earlier in the year.

I find that I’m okay with my stepson’s identity shift–there wasn’t huge piles of information on [stepson’s Title] like there was on [Husband’s Title].  When I knew him as [Title] there wasn’t a lot of information on him, just that he was [Husband’s Title]’s child, and…that was about it.  So it was easy for him to appear to me as basically who he is, and I just labeled the massive amounts of Winter symbolism, snow, fog, and feelings of (comforting) cold whenever he was around, as UPG–even though snow isn’t very common in [Title’s pantheon’s area.]

*gets a mental image of his stepson facepalming and shaking his head*


This song gives me a lot of feelings about the two of them, their history, and their relationship.  The lyrics of this song, especially the chorus, always strike me as being about the Dreamer speaking to his son.  The two of them are incredibly close, and it’s clear from their interactions that they love each other a lot.

Carry me all through the night
I am the last light fading
Leave all the lost souls behind
Show me the silence breaking
And when you’re lost and out of time
I will be right here waiting
And when your dreams return to life
I’ll be forever fading
And we’ll fall behind

So I’ll wait for you
As I keep your faith alive
And I’ll pray for you
As we cross the great divide

Bury the wounds deep inside
Rupture the fault line breaking
Dream of the world left behind
Show us we’re worth forsaking
And when the cold begins to rise
Darkness is overtaking
And when the fear is satisfied
I’ll be forever changing
As we all arise

So I’ll wait for you
As I keep your faith alive
And I’ll pray for you
As we cross the great divide
And I’ll break for you
As I open up the sky
And I’ll stay for you
As we cross the great divide

Follow the sunlight down
Cry clear and loud
Heaven won’t help us now
But it’s better this way
Warm light wash me away

So I’ll wait for you
As I keep your faith alive
And I’ll pray for you
As we cross the great divide
And I’ll break for you
As I open up the sky
And I’ll stay for you
As we cross the great divide

Winterborn

I’ve been wanting to write more about my immediate divine Family (with their encouragement), but wasn’t sure where to start.  I figured music posts would be as good a starting place as any other.


This song reminds me of my stepson.  Not just because Winter is his domain, but because he’s a fan of The Cruxshadows.  There are also sections of this song that reminds me of his relationship with his Father (my Husband.)

This band’s music also helped me through a rough time in my life, so there’s that as well.  I wasn’t a polytheist then, but this song bringing up those memories doesn’t hurt anymore, probably because I think of my stepson first when listening to this song (and to The Chruxshadows in general.)

Dry your eyes and quietly bear this pain with pride
For heaven shall remember the silent and the brave
And promise me they will never see, the fear within our eyes
We will give strength to those who still remain

So bury fear, for fate draws near
And hide the signs of pain
With noble acts, the bravest souls
Endure the heart’s remains
Discard regret, that in this debt
A better world is made
That children of a newer day might remember
And avoid our fate

And in the fury of this darkest hour
We will be your light
You’ve asked me for my sacrifice
And I am Winterborn
Without denying, a faith is come
That I have never known
I hear the angels call my name
And I am Winterborn

Hold your head up high-for there is no greater love
Think of the faces of the people you defend
And promise me, they will never see the tears within our eyes
Although we are men, with mortal sins, angels never cry

So bury fear, for fate draws near
And hide the signs of pain
With noble acts, the bravest souls
Endure the heart’s remains
Discard regret, that in this debt
A better world is made
That children of a newer day might remember
And avoid our fate

And in the fury of this darkest hour
We will be your light
You’ve asked me for my sacrifice
And I am Winterborn
Without denying, a faith in God
That I have never known
I hear the angels call my name
And I am Winterborn

And in the fury of this darkest hour
I will be your light
A lifetime for this destiny
For I am Winterborn
And in this moment..I will not run
It is my place to stand
We few shall carry hope
Within our bloodied hands

And in our dying
We’re more alive, than we have ever been
I’ve lived for these few seconds
For I am Winter-born

And in the fury of this darkest hour
We will be the light
You’ve asked me for my sacrifice
And I am Winter born
Without denying, a faith in man
That I have never known
I hear the angels call my name
And I am Winterborn

Within this moment
I am for you, though better men have failed
I will give my life for love
For I am Winter-born

And in my dying
I’m more alive than I have ever been
I will make this sacrifice
For I am winterborn