In therapy last week, I decided (along with my therapist) that I’m going to be focusing on processing all of last year’s traumatic Otherworld events.
My therapist warned me that it’s going to be difficult, since I’ve been pushing back and repressing those feelings and memories for the past year. It’s made worse since I’ve felt like I can’t talk about all this stuff to my family Here–I explained to my therapist that it’s one thing to be open about being a polytheist, it’s another thing entirely to say “I’m being fought over by gods in another dimension,” and later “I just lost my entire ‘family’ of origin and I’m grieving them.”
We’ve agreed that I should only work on processing when I’m in therapy. I’ve been doing art and writing to process, and that’s helped somewhat, but I’ve found that it’s turning more into staying stuck in that place of pain, rather than actually moving on. I’ve discussed this with the Dreamer, and he very much agrees–he wanted me to get back into art because it made me happy, not just to process stuff.
Some divination that I recently got back said that I need a creative project to focus on over the Summer, either to process further or as a distraction. With my latest therapy appointment, it looks like this project needs to be a distraction.
I do have a story in mind. Based on the discussion in my writer’s group it’s going to be a much larger story than I initially thought it would be, so that’s going to be my creative project for the Summer. I also have a knitting project to work on, for something that’s actually tangible rather than how abstract writing a book can be.